I've been seeing quite a number of folks speaking up about how it seems that the more actually loving we make God, the more heretical we sound.
It's really true.
As most of you know, my song The Heart of God did not arrive easily.
I wrote and wrote about the darkness and struggled to write about hope and resurrection for years. Partly because I was working out God's presence in this suffering world.
Sometimes I think the very reason there is so much suffering is because we're all afraid of a Deity who would order eternal suffering.
Our whole life is made up of building walls because we can't trust that intimacy could ever be safe. I just knew there was a pearl hidden inside Christianity, waiting to be mined and held to the light. It's why I could never just leave,
Easter Sunday has transformed into a very safe, beautiful place to reside. With almost none of the triumphant fireworks that once blazed across my guilt-ridden/washed-but-still-fear-ridden soul.
It is a day of infinite intimacy. An intertwined consummation. A feast that tastes flavours with aliveness and vigour.
As I write this, I have just found out about the Easter morning bombings of the churches in Sri Lanka... I am so sad from all the violence. Sitting in the great Silence, before I pray for the right words to share. May all the wise leaders of this world tap root into the Ancient Peace that showed itself in Jesus, as they begin to respond.
"Wisdom!", cries the Dawn Deacon, but we do not attend. (Merton)
4/21/2019 09:13:57 am
Like so many others, Alana, I too am on this journey, helped along by Greg Boyd, Bradley Jersak Tom Wright and others as well as many hours of pondering. As their words reach my heart I know I am in a different place. In our Communion Service this morning as the reading was announced I didn’t move at first as I had completely forgotten that I was supposed to be doing it. The church administrator was sitting immediately behind me and whispered, ‘It’s you, Anne!’ With heart pounding I walked to the lectern and saw I was to read what has became a very important passage in this journey, John14:1-14 which of course includes the words, ‘Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father.’ My heart stopped pounding and I was able to read with conviction which came from head and heart! ‘The heart of God has been revealed’ indeed!
4/23/2019 07:59:08 am
Thank you so very much Alana for your poem. I have been listening and relistening to your CD Behold, "the Heart of God" feeds my soul as I continue to throw off toxic theology. Thank you for providing music to learn and sing along with that reflects the true gospel. We need new hymns, songs of faith, based on this amazing truth of what God's heart toward us really is!! Thank you, thank you.
4/25/2019 10:08:19 pm
Oh my Alana, the poem is absolutely stunning!
4/27/2019 08:48:20 pm
You with the words and songs allow the feelings of negativity ti disappear.
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Alana Levandoski is a song and chant writer, recording artist and music producer, in the Christian tradition, who lives with her family on a regenerative farm on the Canadian prairies.